to vegan or not to vegan

over the past 11 years I have watched videos and read books about being vegan. Last week I watched a movie called " Food Inc. " and it made me sick to know what goes on in food factories ... so disgusting! It has made me think a lot about cancer and I can't help but wonder if over the past 50 years with the fast food industry changing the way we deal with our meat, because it is in a high demand, if that has anything to do with the growing rate in cancer. Last year I had two very close client friends pass away, one was in her 40's with three girls die from colon cancer and the other in her 60's pass away from cervical cancer. What if we were getting cancer from the way our meat is being processed and the food the animals are eating ... I can't help but wonder if I stopped eating meat if my life might last longer. Then I watched a video called " vegan gal " I think that is what is was called, and she talked all about the statistics of meat and dairy and how it effects our hearts and bodies ... I recommend watching it, it has a lot of info. So now I am back on the vegan train ... for health reasons and we will see what happens. I never last to long but I want this body to last a long time, and I want my kids to be healthy ... I will keep "you" posted. If there are any you's out there:) tonight my mom is making vegan stuffed bell peppers (yummmmm) I can't wait to dig these teeth in to that!

July 5, 2010

It was a semi-normal day. Parker, Theo and I headed down stairs to start our morning. Kyle still in bed recovering from a night of throwing up ... as I approached the kitchen I noticed a grew ling stench that filled my nose, I rounded the corner to prepare my coffee in the kitchen when I noticed about an inch of water with floating poop and toilet paper filling the kitchen, laundry room and bathroom, some how it didn't get our carpet, thank GOD ... my heart sank and I found my self saying " OH SHIT " literally! all over my kitchen, laundry room and bathroom. One might call it a crime scene I call it the most foul scene I have ever had to experience. I was forced into thinking without coffee in my system which is never good ... but some how I got the plumer over along with my father. I took the boys to my moms and came home to help suck the poop water out of the down stairs. At one point I thought I was going to just have to move because of the damage left in my mind. Every time I go in the kitchen I think of skid marks all over the tile. My dad took control and we bleached everything down and I still am disinfecting things all the time. The fern in the front of the house had some crazy roots that got into the water pipe and caused about a 24 " block. That block landed the last three years of shit rite into my house and I did take a picture of the roots, at the bottom rite corner you will find a quarter to show the size of these roots.

it's been a while

More photography

Oh my gosh it's been so long since I have blogged, I really like looking back at my old blogs it's like a diary with pictures. Three months ago I had my precious Theo:) It's funny looking back and remembering how nervous I was about having a second little boy and worrying that my love would be less then my love for Parker but that is so far from the truth. I am so obsessed with Theo and Parker it's crazy and wonderful and I can't even imagine life with out these two little blessings. Theo is really coming to life cooing and laughing rolling over. I find myself savoring every single moment I have with this baby, maybe because it's probably my last baby I will ever have.

When I had Theo it was so different from Parker he came and he came fast! by the time I got to the hospital I was at a 6 and promptly had my epi ( I don't do natural ) now had I showed up half hour later I would have been having an all natural labor and I tell you what, I was so happy to have a huge needle in my back! The pain ... any way Theo was born at 7:21 a.m. April 6,2010! I guess that's when my heart grew just enough to fit him into it. I'll post some pictures of my boys now and blog again another day.

Swine what?

I know I haven't written in a while but I share a common fear of the Swine flu, If I really think about it I will panic and never leave my house. I try to talk myself down so that I can function on a normal level as I go to work, go to the bank, to the store and to the gym all places that are completely infected I'm sure!I just have to remind myself that 1. everyone has a time in this life to die and I can't live in fear and 2. Tons of people die every year from the common flu, we just don't hear about them. I actually stopped watching the news about a year ago because of my anxiety and it has done wonders in my everyday life. I also have to remember that there are so many good things that happen every day and instead of being scared I want to try and help other people that not only could get the swine flue but they are homeless or lost o job. I have it very good in this life and if the worst thing that happens to me is the flu I just hope to live through it I guess, along with my family.

Why?

Am I awake ... I know that Parker will wake up in like six hours. I just finished watching Idol and tonight was odd ... I cried a lot and I saw it in a weird new light. It stared when Scotty the blind guy was singing and his dad and brother were just so proud of him ... his whole life they have been rite by his side and I just find it so touching to watch them be so proud of where he was tonight ... on that stage and so cute!! Then it just got more emotional from there when " Lil rounds " was singing and watching her husband ... he too was sooo proud of his wife who lives to take care of his kids and I couldn't help think about if I was on that stage ... which would be funny and stupid and would also never happen ... but I do practice all the time in the car, any way I think Kyle would be so proud just like "Lil's" husband ... It's weird that something like that can make you value the union between husband and wife and just know that we support each other no matter what, it's nice to know that my husband has my back ... and I guess not only my husband but my friends ... We are all so lucky to have good friends in our lives. I AM THANKFUL for all of my friends. I just feel like I don't even deserve such a great support system ... but know that I value you all so very much. 

I'm not ever pregnant ... just a total wreck! 

the latest

Gosh I know what you must be thinking ... write a new blog already! Just kidding. I just sometimes have nothing to write about. But I finally got my camera back in action and I have a couple of pictures to share with my friends. As most of you know by now we are going to be moving soon, so I have been busy packing and searching the web for my dream house:) I can't sleep at night because I imagine how I will decorate and I am soooo excited. I LOVE where I live now but it is just to small ... with all of Parkers toys from Christmas and his birthday they are growing to big for our little cute home in the village. So off we go to a new home in hopes to stay for a long long time. I didn't paint where I am now because our landlord is all up in our bizz with his elderly mother behind us. So anyway I shall keep you all posted with our adventure!

three short years ago

... where does the time go? It was only Three years ago that I got married ... It feels like one year ago! I'm going to go back to the first time that Kyle and I met and tell you our Story:)

    I just moved home from L.A. and every weekend we had these B.B.Q's at Lane and Erins house! It's when they lived over on the one bedroom side ... at this point I think Lanes dad lived over on the other side ...  because I know Lane had taken that wall down to make a bedroom. Any way we were all laying around watching David Blane when Andrew and Kyle showed up ... I remembered Kyle from high school, we had a class together and I always thought he was really cute ( along with every other guy at that school ) I was a sad case in high school! Any how dinner was good that night ... Noelle and Erin made some really yummy corn. We got drunk like always and Kyle and I were doing weird dance moves and a lot of making out! I told Andrew he should go get in bed with Noelle and so he did! She was so Pissed off that she came storming out of the house wearing this pink sweats outfit with the pants tucked into her socks!!! hahahaha it was soooo funny! Poor Andrew! That night Kyle and snuggled on the make shift couch ! So the next morning was weird when we walked to our cars he got my number but he never called me. I would see him driving all over town in his little red honda. I would tell Noelle " I saw that guy I hooked up with again " . I had these friends in town Brian and Dustin and we had a party at my mom and dads while they were out of town, So I called Kyle to invite him and he came! Things got weird that night because I was wasted and smoked pot with a group of boys and was throwing up all night and it was ugly! Anyway Kyle and I went on our first date the next night ... R&D's! It was kind of weird but we had fun. 

    Kyle was like no one I had dated in the past. He was really snugly and affectionate. He seemed to be a  Mama's boy and I like that. Anyway I didn't want anything to serious but he made me choose, ALL or nothing and I wasn't ready to not have him in my life. So he asked my to be his girlfriend rite around Halloween time. Anyway three years of marriage latter ... it's been good and it's been hard! But in the end it's all worth it! I love my life and I love my family!

Also ... I was so crazy back then! I am so thankful that I grew up and don't live that life any more!! I was out of control! it was fun though!